I’ve been feeling…I don’t know how to label it, sad maybe?
Yeah, sad. And I don’t know why. I’m laughing with people, and suddenly I just feel…sad. Like today, as I was having coffee with my wonderful family, we were all laughing at something stupid, and then I just found myself staring at them all, observing them, and almost tearing up. “I don’t fit in with my own family, I don’t fit in anywhere”. A thought which surprised me.
I’m just…sad. And restless. Fed up. Tired of being “that girl”. Tired of drifting away.
I wish that I had the courage to pack my things and move away to another town, somewhere. I love my hometown to death, but I can’t build a future here. I’m too set in my ways, I’m already playing the role that’s been handed to me here.
I just..I just want to find myself.